Out musician Lil Nas X shared a heartbreaking letter to his younger, closeted self just as he released his new single, “Montero (Call Me By Your Name).”
Lil Nas X soared to fame two years ago with his record-breaking hit “Old Town Road,” and he came out as gay at the height of his popularity. Now he released a new single accompanied by a very sexual and gay video.
But the 21-year-old hip hop sensation took a moment to speak to how much his life has changed now that he’s an adult.
“Dear 14-year-old Montero,” Nas opens the letter, referring to his government name, Montero Lamar Hill. “I wrote a song with our name in it. It’s about a guy I met last summer.”
“I know we promised to never come out publicly, I know we promised to never be ‘that’ type of gay person, I know we promised to die with the secret, but this will open doors for so many other queer people to simply exist,” he wrote.
“You see, this is very scary for me, people will be angry, they will say I’m pushing an agenda. But the truth is, I am. The agenda to make people stay the fuck out of other people’s lives and stop dictating who they should be.”
The video for “Montero” shows Nas in drag, shirtless, in a bedazzled muscular bodysuit, in drag, and wearing knee-high stiletto boots and underwear while giving the devil a lap dance.
His new single comes just a “Old Town Road” became the most streamed single in the U.S., according to Chart Data, with 2.992 billion on-demand streams.